| "think with your brain and not your heart" |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|10:23 pm] |
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| | christina aguilera: walk away | ] |
theres just nothin for me anymore. we all learn from our mistakes. im just tired of how the things work out for me. which is nothin. i guess we all kno the truth about things..people dont care. not about you or anyone else jsut themselves and dont take into consideration the effects on other people. do without thinkin i guess some would say or in other words who really gives a fuck. but w.e its life you live and learn. i juss seriosuly need to get out of this scene. leave everything behind and forget every little thing. but this just cant happen soon enough. i dont kno what to say or do anymore. maybe we all deserve everything we get in some fucked up way but really i dont see it. im just tired feelin like this and it just doesnt look like anythin good ahead. but im used to shit but why does it bother me this much. next time ill juss keep my mouth shut and wont say anythin at all. cuz things are really better left unsed that way u dont lay ur self out and look like an asshole.i kno now never to make the same mistake again. |
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[Jun. 15th, 2004|05:40 pm] |
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| |  weird | ] |
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| | seether feat. amy lee: broken | ] |
today was just another one of those weird days were everythins goes fast but while your in it goes so slow. liek everythin was happening without me but i was there in like this wierd place idk maybe im just dumb oh well at least im not bored...most of the time. i finish 4 out of 7 finals YAY pshh i cant wait for this shit to be over with. At least i dont have school 2morro so i can find somthin good to do tonite. but nothins every definate in my life so its all good if nothin works out. i babysat from like 1230 till 430 made some moolah and now im ready for tontie just gotta get in the shower and find somethin worth while. im justso tired i dont wanna do anythin but like its not worth stayin home here riskin gettin caught. i can see how summers gonna be already. i gues ive been thinking alot about how things work out and how somethings dont i want things to be fine but like everytime i feel like im tryin to do what i think is right or like w.e not a big deal kinda of way im gettin pushed back and it sucks. i feel liek i should just give up but somthin is like nahhh cannt... wow im def loosing my mind...well im gonna get in the shower...later |
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[Jun. 14th, 2004|06:35 pm] |
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| |  sore | ] |
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| | incubus: here in my room | ] |
today was just great even though i failed my final but ooooh well...city was great nice day out kinda muggy. many memories :) im soo hungry but i cant eat yet...wow this kinda sux but its all good. just a lil nervous but its ok ill be fine. wow its only monday that really sucks but schools almost over. haha kai that guys was like ::Tickle tickle:: aww hes soo sweet buthe did kinda freak me out WEIRDOOOOOS. maddy! that guy from requim for a dream with the english accent hahaha soo weird and the dude from smile empty soul wow we saw alot of ppl i love the city or at least kai did. today was juss simply great maybe 2morro will be better...well have to find out and see now wont we. im gonan take a napsky peace outt |
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[Jun. 13th, 2004|02:09 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | usher: burn | ] |
my tummy hurts...im on the phone its 2am im wide awake...i cant sleep anymore... i dont kno why,..its soo weird omg school i dont wanna go monday grrr maybei wont nah i have to wow whats goinj on lol iwannafeellikethisforver :) monday city word!!! i love my gurls kai shelly maddy, renee, katie wo0ord :) laterrr
::soo many days soo many hours:: |
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[Jun. 12th, 2004|07:23 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | liz phair: extraordinary | ] |
im so tired...last nite was fun hanging out with gina and NAHWEED(howveruspellit) lol im so happy for you gina. Yea ur def rockin the yellow punch buggy! "is that crack? CAN I SNIFF it" lol poor lil boys. "wait gotta drive like a white boy" " AHHHH A SNAKE nah man its a logg...ohh,, oh boy were goin farming in the pond(sump) lol madd funn. today me and gina went to the roosevelt mall then went to the barn to go see rocky...awww hes so0o cute my baby. came home took a shower and a nap sort of...latly i cant sleep i dont kno why its weird like im just thinking to much. and it needs to chyll cuz i feel like my brain is gonna explode wen i get headaches.. i wonder what im gonna do tonite honestly i feel like doin nothin im just not in the mood right now to get ready and do whatever. have u ever thought about what other people were thinking. and how you would just wish for one second you would kno what they were thinking. yea well it sucks a lot wen u cant kno. the world would be such a better place if everyone spoke their minds. not play games. but its hard i guess cuz ppls feelings but i rather knoe the truth i guess. or some close to it? blahhh yeaa well of anyone knows what i mean lemme kno so i dont think im crazy. well im out kiddies... great now my dads truck wont startt hmmm could this be a good thing or a sign? WHATEVERRR now i feel like i must get outta here...later! |
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| friday nittte |
[Jun. 11th, 2004|03:41 pm] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
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| | kittie: what i always wanted | ] |
Yes it friday the last day of school and just luvly out! i should get in the shower cuz im goin to ginas but hey who am i impressing? haha nah i feel nasty from the SMMOKKEEE BOMMMBBBBB....school go so much better towards the end sum pple....mm i wonder whoooo....placed a nice 3-minute smoke bomb in a locker and literallt 3 seconds the whole halways was fillin with smoke. IT WAS GREAST perfect ending for school. even better i might not have to take any test cuz ths school is bullshit and they have a clue what they are talkin about cuz they are morons but yeaaa. im so tired right now but nothins gonna stop me from goin out tonite its been a long week. like i feel so great right now i dont kno why, maybei need somethin to excite me cuz how gay this week was...summers here, and theres only more to come... |
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| juss watevaaaaa |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|10:02 pm] |
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still tryin to figure this shit out. gee thanx fred for giving me the idea nah jp lol. im sure i will one day or i wont and just not write in it anymore. lalala musica! tomorro im hanging out with this cool kid gina lol probably just chillen aside from that i think this weekends gonna be gay i heard its gonna rain but then again i heard sunny. w/e i dont care really. i was soo happy today one of my favorite movies wsa on my girl 2. yea yea i kno GAY but i havent seen that shit in a long time and wen i saw it i was like wow i dont remeber a single thing about it so i watched it like the first time. i wish i could be in a movie they work out so perfectly its nice to dream about but thats why this world is the way it is b.c ppl see the bullshit and expect it to happen and t just doesnt. im not tired anymore, just in school, i feel like im in a daze all day and wen i actually tune in and listen im lost. it felt like the day was just moving slowly not like ugg wanna get out of class just everyone and what they did was slow. i need to do somethin b4 i die in this house why cant the weekend get here sooner thats the only time wen im happy i guess wen im not home, party party party but recently that hasnt been that important to me maybe its juss mood swings but lately ive been just waiting for something to happen and nothings going to happen but i juss think there is. i wanna do somethin this summer to make it memorable...mmmmm any ideas?? everyones goin away here my moms goin to florida with my bros and my dad who knos he might go down too most likly. but b4 she goes to florida she HAS TO visit her lovely brother who left everything and everyone to herd goat upstate? i dont understand pple maye thats his life mission to kill goats and sell them to jamaicans(so i hear)? so house to myself :) its juss gonna be me and dara i have no idea how im gettin around probably bus-in or it dara but oh well hasnt bothered me yet. im not gonna worry about the small details. maybe this summer ill get to go to haylees 4th of july party or even juss go there over the summer. haha this time hayl i promise, ill probably end up living there or her stayin here. which ever way it goes. there really isnt much to talk about cuz nothin has happend and i dont really have any emotions to "express." i want to go to the jersey shore this summer for liek i week i fucken love it there. its so pretty and some aunt i have has a house and always is like oh you can come down whenever! so word im def doin that one point. mayeb this summer wont be so bad but i want it to be so much more. maybe milly will try teachin surfing again lol with waves next time. hopefully ill get to show this summer so hopefully thatll happen2. wow no joke this entire entry just sounds like bullshit right now but im sooo hyper and bored i dont care anymore!!! it funny how people u thought were one of ur closest friends are FAKE>...not sayin any names but jus some girl, its really isnt that big of deal to me anyway we were fading anyway so really i dont care, just sort of bothers me with how tight we were but like ppl do change nothin is permanent. ive come to learn this.. the things we want the most never stay with us no matter how hard we try to hold on but thats apart of life that we have to live with. i figure if those things are truly worth your while that theyll come back one day maybe not soon but eventually otherwise there was really no point. im out nite |
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[Jun. 10th, 2004|07:38 pm] |
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| | Nirvana :heart shaped box | ] |
Yea well if figured why not and try this thing. Im bored right now so i really dont have anything better to do unless i do school shit but im really not in the mood to. hmm i wonder how u start these things....well w.e ill try.....
well today was a pretty gay day, school all freakin day and i had the worst headache of my life in my last 2 classes. i cant wait for school 2 be over one more day and just testing. its not that i want school to end b.c i kno i wont see alot of my friends over the summer its just idk i need a change. yea we all do i guess. ive been living under this stressful bullshit which im sure everyone goes through to but you dont kno how different it can be for each person. i juss want to wake up and not have anythin to worry about or to think about that would ruin my day. 2morro shoudl be a fun day we bought our farwell gift:+) thanx to miss may! ahh this is gonna be fun but i doubt ill see it cuz thats just how it go0oes i dont care its gonan be funny though. its thursday!!! where are my party gurls? blah i wanna do something fun worth while. have u ever had one of this moments where you were like wow i seriously need to do somethin to have fun right now, yea well this one of them if you kno what i mean. if not sorry cant explain it better. sorry abou tthe journal being plain i havent quit figured that part out...i just dont kno why something always feels like its missing from everything i do. maybe im just retarded but thats just how i feel. although i did have the best dinner in the world gasho's mmmm soo fuckin good well im gonna goo maybe ill have something better to write about later |
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